Stuff that Gives Me Pause ...

It's ridiculous to even say that 2020 and now 2021 have thrown a lot of us into much chaos with respect to communication.

I've watched friends just trash my personal views in order to facilitate their own ideas and thoughts without even batting an eye.

I've bared my soul only to be walked over and ignored.

I, in the meantime, have taken much time to think about who I am and what makes me function; or, why I function the way I do.

I am and have been estranged from my younger sister for sometime now. And having dug into my soul to figure out why we aren't close; which I always thought was my fault; I manned up and bared my soul to her only to have it thrown back into my face and then, appropriately, hung up on while on the phone. I no longer feel our not being close is entirely my fault.

But this too, has given me much to think about. The 'why' people feel the need to behave the way they do. 

What has made us into who we are? 

Why some of us aren't close even though we are related genetically. 

Why some of us do not repeat becoming our parents and some merely pass the trauma from one generation to the next. 

Why in our minds we are so much better than we behave? 

And how long can we, as a society; a species; continue to behave this way to each other?

So many big questions.

Lastly, does anyone else think of these same questions?