Apocalypse Now and The Super Bowl ...

I used to love football.  But I just couldn't watch the Super Bowl.

Things aren't good now. Life is as far from normal as you can get and all I can think about is that we are almost 1 year into this mess and no one is concentrating any joint effort to get past this. Instead we bandaid; patch and paste together what used to be a normal life and think that's gonna be okay.

It's not okay for me. It's surely not enough.

I am reminded of the line in Apocalypse Now ...

"the more they tried to make it just like home, the more they made everybody miss it."

I miss what we had. I want everyone to get past this OR to figure out how to live with it so that we all can try to enjoy living because right now, at least for me, so not enjoyable.

I suppose I expected so much more out of us as a species. I expected so much more from us as a society and this; this entire situation just makes me sad and ill right now.